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Jul. 8th, 2005 @ 06:07 pm It's good to be bad, and I'm proud to be wierd
Mentally: : hyperhyper
Sounds: : Rammstein--Heirate Mich
Hi everyone, I'm Ray Newman, and...um...I get turned on by blood, guts, gore, pain and the like. Yeah, I'm a sadist. Unfortunately, all the sadism and blood fetish communities are either TOO FUCKING GAWTHIC *cue the bleeding black roses and velvet corsets*, only for ages eighteen and up (what, teenagers are incapable of having these types of fetishes?!), geared toward the type of "sadists" that get off on sex "play" that doesn't even leave any goddamn marks, and/or snobbish toward "virgins" (i.e, the "if you haven't done it, you're completely hopelessly ignorant about it" attitude).
It really sucks when everyone calls me a "sicko" or gets all righteously concerned about me, worried that I'll kill someone or do other dumb shit like that, when they find out about my sexual "preferences". It also grates on my nerves how I can get more turned on by a goddamn horror movie than most of the shit they peddle as "SM porn." (Seriously. I almost had an orgasm watching the scene in Texas Chainsaw Massacre where the hitchhiker cuts his own hand with Franklin's knife.) And no, non-consensual violence doesn't turn me on at all. I'm NOT the BTK killer's clone, and I wish more people would get that through their thick skulls.
Other than that, I'm sixteen, a female-to-male transsexual (though I haven't got a sex change yet), and I like punk rock and industrial music. I like to write stories. YAAAAAY!
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mordred_sade:
From:mordred_sade
Date:July 8th, 2005 03:37 pm (UTC)
(See you in Disneyland.)
Aww shit, I'm prolly gonna get yelled at...
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From:whydoeslifesuck
Date:February 24th, 2006 06:18 am (UTC)
(See you in Disneyland.)
you seem uterly amazing..
why are there no people like you where i live!